After some cold damp days, and flooding in some parts of the country, it’s warm and mild – about 6oC above recent average for this time of year. I find myself to be both delighted and unsettled by this lovely soft warmth. I’ve been able to get on with a bit of clearing and composting in patches, it feels like time this year, and making space to ensure the ivy doesn’t take over completely.

I’ve been able to sit in the sun and watch the rising and falling of insects. After the desolate summer of so little life on the wing, this has been such a joy. It is also an encouragement to keep a wild diversity of flowers in the garden, native and from further south, as the insects appear unexpectedly, at strange times. This autumn it feels time, having left it for a few years, to introduce some disturbance and give a chance for a variety of plants to grow. But apart from enjoying the welcome rays, I have also been aware of the wind and rains this extra warmth carries in its wake.
So this poem is an exploration of this turbulence of feeling.

Mid October heat

The sun shines long and low,
as warm as sudden laugher,
a broadening smile
blown in from the south
and damp with oceans,
I can almost smell the tropics
on its strange soft breath.

What do you do with so much
disquieting beauty – with a day
like this, shining, wild and hot,
damp with fever?

The low sun holds too much warmth.
The green around me hums
and sings with growth, rejoicing,
even as the leaves of the trees fade
a little, and tumble across the grass
on this wild hot wind.

I am afraid.
I look up at the strange flows
of air and water above me,
shifting and changing,
heavy and thick,
as the dragonflies rise still,
hunting among gnats,
and the bees hum in this late flowering –
at last, the bees, and here a
hummingbird moth, and
red admirals, all
drunk with sweetness
in these late days.  These late days.