Today is the day some call Blue Monday – the most depressing day of the year.
Here in Suffolk, though, we have had some sunshine, and the frost has sparkled, so it’s less gloomy here – at least meteorologically – than it has been for weeks.
I thought I’d share this poem with you. Churchill called his depression his Black Dog, and it seems a good name for it. I have tried to express the care and nurture we wish we could give ourselves, and those we walk with, when we notice the Black Dog is beginning to sniff around. Those gentle nudges towards the things that used to bring life and joy, in the hope that they will again. I hope that has quite a different feel to injunctions to pull up your socks, or whatever. It’s more a hope of holding on to the capacity to notice what does you good, and to keep on doing that, even when you don’t feel the good being done.
I hope it is a simple and gentle hand to hold.
The Blurt Foundation offers compassionate support resources online, as do many other organisations.
Throwing Sticks for the Black Dog
When I’m walking, I pick up sticks,
they feel rough and dry in my hand.
I have been collecting them for a while,
just in case.
And that black dog, well, can you see him?
Is he walking with us –
sloping through the undergrowth?
Or there, breathing at our heels?
I will throw some sticks.
Maybe he will turn playful,
maybe he’ll run after them
and not come back. Maybe.
Maybe he’ll leave us alone for a while.
I can try.
Here are a few I have gathered:
Beauty, any sort of beauty
that takes you unawares
so the mind halts in its circling tracks.
Green beauty of growing things,
beauty that comes from the human
heart and mind –
words that build castles in the air.
Look, there they are!
Light, and the patterns it makes
through these leaves,
and darkness, when it is soft,
when, awake at night,
sitting by an open window,
I hear the owl – can you hear it?
Movement and prayer, together,
if movement and prayer remain possible.
Good food, that grows in the earth,
its colours and smells as I chop, chop.
Friendship, and kindness –
either given, received, or witnessed.
The memory of good things past,
the faintest trace of hope for
good things to come.
For good things may come.
And so, I carry this armful of sticks,
ready to throw – ready to give away –
Here is a link to my poem Sorrows